It’s been a while

Something said inside, it’s time to put fingers on keyboard and write some stuff down… not sure what stuff but stuff…..

Indeed, I look back at older posts and I see that in many cases, life has moved on, but the troubles are still real and often still the same. That means or it suggests for some things, I never got to that root cause, or made a change to make things different.

The definition of insanity is doing the same thing over and over again, but expecting different results

Einstein

But if it’s good enough for him, then maybe it’s good enough for me? Well may be not, if I am feeling compelled to write stuff down. So whats changed? A holiday , non-brexit, new job, so lots of stuff. Signed up to a gym to try to help out with the inevitable feeling slow and funky. I would add two sessions have really helped with my should, kneck and back which makes me annoyed as to why I am waited so long……

Next annoyance, is the grammer check underlining lots of my writing in red, I am going to ignore that.

A few days holiday probably have put me in a more reflective mood I guess which might have made me thing more about writing stuff down. Also I discover, that as my parents get older sometimes it makes me think more, so much to learn from them, so little time…. Add to that a I get older, and more stupid, needing a password manager is becoming more of an issue!

That’s a start isn’t it. Next time…

Read between the lines…

So yesterday, changes did happen, and I tried to amend some of the bad habbits. I went for a swim after work and put a bit of exercise through the body. The steam room was fun, if not for being obscenely warm.  But, it is a start none the less.

During the day, more water was had, and thats important as I suspect thats a big one, I’ve missed from being good. I also managed breakfast, the chrunchy nut cornflakes, in an attempt to cut the amount of breakfast crap.

Lunch is more of a challenge as not been ready to make and prep, so thats the next one. But with honesty in mind that’s next week at the earliest.

So, it feels a bit of a mixed bag and keeping the head above water, but its treading water. More foundation blocks to be bulit and deployed and then a step change.

Cheers

S

 

It’s beginning to untangle!

Well the good news, is that some of my thoughts have started to untangle and I am beginning to make sense about some of the things,  I want to tackle. Now, it might feel like or sound like procrastination about “getting on with it” but if i’ve not worked it out, then any action is doomed to fail, as 1) you tackle an issue and not the root and 2) is it even the right issue.

I struggled with that last sentence and even the choice of words of problem v issue. Now, they are two distinctly seperate things as an issue may or may not be a problem. So I am going with issue for now.

May be dissatisfaction?

Anyway, work to do….

Catch you later

 

Pondering thoughts…

Hmmm, something have got to change, then becomes pondering thoughts, whilst you decide what or if to change. Now the decision is something has to ,

so thats easy then,  it gets more difficult to look for the what. I guess it depends on the scenario and what is going on, and indeed then what is the outcome!

And of course, that’s where I’ve come unstuck, I am usual ok at identifying an issue and then determining an plan of action as to what, when, where, who etc…. but I just can’t put a finger on it, or perhaps its locked away in a cupboard called denial. I’ve seen lots of old habits return and that’s disappointing if i am honest, and may be that’s what slowing me down.

Some more time, and idle thought is needed, as one thing I know is that I cant force it.

 

 

End of the first working week…

So made it to the end of the week which is nice. The most appealing part has been that we’ve walked each day, and the milage has improved each day. Coffee switch made to Americano vs any milky coffee which is a step in the right direction. Next week sees the return to the sheep.

So this year, there is a motivation and a point. Not content with being huge this year, I’ve got a road trip planned in for later in the year which see’s me off to the USA. As part of this, it’s going to be hot hot hot, and there are also a number of roller coasters etc. As such, it won’t do me any harm to fix it. A few diet changes already filtering in, last huzzah tomorrow with food as part of a birthday and then we are done. Back on plan, to get on track

Wish me luck, going to need it.

 

Reflections…


So I note that my last post was in September, and I’ve not needed to, nor had the time to post. Life just gets in the way sometime. However, as is the norm for this time of year, there is an element of reflection and planning. Now that is not my normal bag, but as I get older….

I’ve never been a fan of new year resolutions, as its easy to be glib, or not commit to actions. As such, no resolutions nothing silly, but at my time of life, and something I’ve said before, changes need to happen.

One of the drivers, is a drive, and a big spend holiday for later in the year. To survive heat and humidity I need to do something, and make a change. There will also be roller coasters a plenty to play with so fit into a dam thing, changes need to come.

It’s also fair to say healthwise, the family has faced some issues this year, and whilst I can plod on, its time to stop plodding.  For the record, nothing bad for me, bar the plantar which isn’t ever going to go, and a dodgy tooth.

 

So then, onwards and next steps. Stop messing about Stephen and commit to the cause, and go do it. There is a number in my head, and thats the loss goal for September.  Time to take the black sheep seriously and pull it all together as it should be. Stop spending at work, and back on the water etc. During this year, I’ve covered an extra 700 miles or so, its got to be the 1000 for next year too. Started well and then drifted off.

It can all only help.

I do find, writing this stuff down all helps to, so I will. Or at least, I say I will

 

Cheers.

Steve

 

 

Exposed, or feeling like it…

brain_therapy_400_clr_15912So first things first, this is probably just a reaction to being tired and sore, and it probably isn’t as bad as my head is telling me, but for the first time in a gym session I felt exposed the other day.  Just a regular session, nothing too much out of the ordinary with the usual kinds of activities. Now it was a longer session a 30 minute straight through, but have done that kind of thing before.

1 minute for set of exercises, finish them early then rest and be ready for the next set.  So 10 burprees in a minute, then press ups, then kettle swings, then skip then plank for 30. Finish your reps and get a rest. Now for the pressups and kettle bells fine. The plank was an effort but better breathing helps here. Skips, I am just slow, but a minute wont kill. So that leaves the burpess. For a long time, not a specialty, but doing more of them. My action is slow so 10 in 60 is effort zapping and takes the minute. So that means no rest… the effect of repeated rounds slows you down.

But this is when the mind games come, and I realize that I am always the last to finish and people “might” be watching. Now in hindsight probably not as they don’t need to see me jiggle about, and they are recovering from their own efforts. But for the first time in a session I felt exposed and isolated. It wasnt a great place to be. Now this really is against the ethos and idea of the place, and in no way is it a reflection of then, its more my mind wandering off and racing into pain and tiredness.

I needed to write it down, draw a line and move on. So that’s it.

Move on Stephen.

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