It’s beginning to untangle!

Well the good news, is that some of my thoughts have started to untangle and I am beginning to make sense about some of the things,  I want to tackle. Now, it might feel like or sound like procrastination about “getting on with it” but if i’ve not worked it out, then any action is doomed to fail, as 1) you tackle an issue and not the root and 2) is it even the right issue.

I struggled with that last sentence and even the choice of words of problem v issue. Now, they are two distinctly seperate things as an issue may or may not be a problem. So I am going with issue for now.

May be dissatisfaction?

Anyway, work to do….

Catch you later

 

Pondering thoughts…

Hmmm, something have got to change, then becomes pondering thoughts, whilst you decide what or if to change. Now the decision is something has to ,

so thats easy then,  it gets more difficult to look for the what. I guess it depends on the scenario and what is going on, and indeed then what is the outcome!

And of course, that’s where I’ve come unstuck, I am usual ok at identifying an issue and then determining an plan of action as to what, when, where, who etc…. but I just can’t put a finger on it, or perhaps its locked away in a cupboard called denial. I’ve seen lots of old habits return and that’s disappointing if i am honest, and may be that’s what slowing me down.

Some more time, and idle thought is needed, as one thing I know is that I cant force it.

 

 

End of the first working week…

So made it to the end of the week which is nice. The most appealing part has been that we’ve walked each day, and the milage has improved each day. Coffee switch made to Americano vs any milky coffee which is a step in the right direction. Next week sees the return to the sheep.

So this year, there is a motivation and a point. Not content with being huge this year, I’ve got a road trip planned in for later in the year which see’s me off to the USA. As part of this, it’s going to be hot hot hot, and there are also a number of roller coasters etc. As such, it won’t do me any harm to fix it. A few diet changes already filtering in, last huzzah tomorrow with food as part of a birthday and then we are done. Back on plan, to get on track

Wish me luck, going to need it.

 

Reflections…


So I note that my last post was in September, and I’ve not needed to, nor had the time to post. Life just gets in the way sometime. However, as is the norm for this time of year, there is an element of reflection and planning. Now that is not my normal bag, but as I get older….

I’ve never been a fan of new year resolutions, as its easy to be glib, or not commit to actions. As such, no resolutions nothing silly, but at my time of life, and something I’ve said before, changes need to happen.

One of the drivers, is a drive, and a big spend holiday for later in the year. To survive heat and humidity I need to do something, and make a change. There will also be roller coasters a plenty to play with so fit into a dam thing, changes need to come.

It’s also fair to say healthwise, the family has faced some issues this year, and whilst I can plod on, its time to stop plodding.  For the record, nothing bad for me, bar the plantar which isn’t ever going to go, and a dodgy tooth.

 

So then, onwards and next steps. Stop messing about Stephen and commit to the cause, and go do it. There is a number in my head, and thats the loss goal for September.  Time to take the black sheep seriously and pull it all together as it should be. Stop spending at work, and back on the water etc. During this year, I’ve covered an extra 700 miles or so, its got to be the 1000 for next year too. Started well and then drifted off.

It can all only help.

I do find, writing this stuff down all helps to, so I will. Or at least, I say I will

 

Cheers.

Steve

 

 

Exposed, or feeling like it…

brain_therapy_400_clr_15912So first things first, this is probably just a reaction to being tired and sore, and it probably isn’t as bad as my head is telling me, but for the first time in a gym session I felt exposed the other day.  Just a regular session, nothing too much out of the ordinary with the usual kinds of activities. Now it was a longer session a 30 minute straight through, but have done that kind of thing before.

1 minute for set of exercises, finish them early then rest and be ready for the next set.  So 10 burprees in a minute, then press ups, then kettle swings, then skip then plank for 30. Finish your reps and get a rest. Now for the pressups and kettle bells fine. The plank was an effort but better breathing helps here. Skips, I am just slow, but a minute wont kill. So that leaves the burpess. For a long time, not a specialty, but doing more of them. My action is slow so 10 in 60 is effort zapping and takes the minute. So that means no rest… the effect of repeated rounds slows you down.

But this is when the mind games come, and I realize that I am always the last to finish and people “might” be watching. Now in hindsight probably not as they don’t need to see me jiggle about, and they are recovering from their own efforts. But for the first time in a session I felt exposed and isolated. It wasnt a great place to be. Now this really is against the ethos and idea of the place, and in no way is it a reflection of then, its more my mind wandering off and racing into pain and tiredness.

I needed to write it down, draw a line and move on. So that’s it.

Move on Stephen.

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Random Ramblings Ahoy…

I realise its been a while since i really sat down and thought about what to write, and to be fair I am not sure I thought about it, words of just hitting the keyboard. Hopefully it may make sense, probably it wont and worst case will look like I am mashing the keyboard with my forehead again…… but hey ho…..

First ucustom_figure_pain_spot_15571p my and my knees. They’ve been sore for what seems like an age, but just plod on. However, I did myself a mischief with a fitness session and then touch rugby the same evening. It felt like a steam roller had hit me, and even walking became an issue. I know when i over extend, as the legs hit when even sitting still or worse still flat out in bed. Certainly looks like done a number this time. Stretching, rolling, tights… the whole tool kit applied. In the end, it was time to rest so a week of nothingness seems to have helped. Managed a blacksheep last night and made it to  minute 17 before the pain kicked in. Not bad given the time i’ve had away. There was one “ouch” made it out loud, and a couple of times, I felt sick not with the exercise, but with the pain. Last few burpees didnt happen as i changed to stretch and extend, but that didnt really work. But, given time out I am positive.

 

Its been a tough few weeks at work with the ever growing demands placed upon everyone. Thats it no more comments, allowed or needed. Social or not.

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A lot of music has been played of late, and enjoyed some music before work, at lunch and beyond. its been a nice change. I even managed some Matt Munro post recruitment last week. Indeed, as i type now spotify is playing a classic pop play list at me…  https://play.spotify.com/user/spotify_uk_/playlist/1q5egxQKL7etdyhohqTS9S that doesnt look a great link but meh. Apparenlty i should trash the hotel and hit the mini bar. Sadly this week one of the panasonic wifi speakers died and needs repairing, but its proving to be harder than is necessary! need to find a local repairer to do it and awaiting an email from them.

 

Easter SuCbz_A9yW0AArVG9nday see’s us back at the Falcons for another round of the Avivia Premiership. Its just a shame to see its Mr Goodes last game, its been fun and certainly he has helped. He is also a reminder to people, that sporting excellence can come in all shapes and sizes! Perhaps the image there isnt the most appealing, but was amusing. I guess Barbour also liked the exposure!

Some interesting signings seems to be coming up for the future, and it seems like the Falcons coould be the home of players at end of careers seeing out the last years, and you know what I am cool with that….might be short of a yard of pace but if the skill is there…..

 

Enough from me for now….